Random Thoughts by Pina

Yesterday was the first day in the hospital and today is the first day that I will actually be caring for patients. Yesterday was good, it was a chance to get to know my floor a little and find out where things are located.  I don't think I like this hospital. It is old, small, and very hot and stuffy. I will be working in the Extended care unit and long term care unit. It is dark....and stifling . I feel bad for the patients. One of my tasks yesterday was to go into patients rooms and introduce myself to 3 patients.  It hit me...I will be caring for these patients...I will be in a position to be so close and to see every part of them. Some of the parts that have only been seen my their mom or spouse... It is a little terrifying. What if I fail? What if I gag? What if I do something wrong? What if I hurt them? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I forget how to do everything I ever learned?  I feel so inadequate ...like I am playing dress up in my scrubs with my stethoscope ar...

This is my friend amber ...she got married to brian...and I love her Here is me and my brown trout and our dear friend brian...he got married...to amber here I am at Jason's wedding... This is my mom, dad, grandpa and grandma from my dad's side...oh yeah...and my seany

I decided to post some random pics...so here they are I call this pic..."In the Womb"

I am so excited! A little nervous, lots of butterflys. I am starting clinicals tomorrow! I am more nervous about the paperwork than anything else. We have tons of paper work that we have to fill out every day. Tomorrow I will not really be doing very much patient care. Just getting oriented to the hospital and  introducing myself to the patients.  It is my prayer that God would use me, in any way that he wants. I want to be able to be a comfort, help, instiller of hope...useful, and an awesome testimony of what Jesus Christ has done for me. God is so good...

I need to get alot done today. I realized that I had more homework than I had originally thought...so that will take alot of the day. I also have not gone on a run this entire week...I said I would go every day this week. I also need to go see my great aunt, she is in  a nursing home right now which makes me so very sad because I firmly believe that old people should be with family during their last days on earth. But extreme circumstances in my family do not allow for that.  I also need to make some enchiladas...I am excited about that...I really love enchiladas!!! I am so excited because my grandpa gave me some beautiful pictures of flowers to put up in my house. They will go in the downstairs bathroom. I went to the dollar store and bought some great frames to put them in. Maybe I will take pictures and post them on here...probably not...but maybe.  I need God's grace! pina

Today is a homework day for me...I really need to be diligent  and get everything done!! I also need to run a few errands for my esposito.  I think I will make pizza tonight, I have some leftover spaghetti sauce that I can use....I have yet to conquer the home made dough, I really want to make some home made pizza dough...but I just don't know how and don't really have the time. Good thing Trader Joe's has great whole wheat dough. Pray for me!!! I need to have self discipline. heart pina

I love this picture of Sean...he is so cute!!

not sure how...but I started following myself... I need to figure this thing out!!

so, this is my first official blog post. I don't consider facebook notes or myspace "blogs" real blogs. I figured, since I am very addicted to reading other people's blogs I might as well start one of my own. I am the definition of a lurker. I read tons of blogs and never comment on them. But I am changing my ways...I really want to get into this.  I think this will be a place where I will post recipes, my daily adventures in nursing school, what I am learning about myself, God, my marriage....and whatever else I feel like talking about. Maybe I will learn how to put pictures on this thing!!! ok....adios pina marie brown